Deliciously Stephy

what did I get after spending all this time and energy on tidying up our place?

February 1st, 2006

….. never feel so unsatisfied …… about you!

I really hate being like your mom…… always have to remind you of the things that you need to do and the things that you need to deal with yourself.

For your car insurance, I called the insurance company for you and get a quote. I searched online to help you find out the different options you have and the best rates of all these options.
For the problem of your camera, I talked to the owner of the camera store for you. They needed the repair report of the camera, and I had to keep bugging you to find it out (coz I couldn’t find it).

For all these phone bills, cable bill, store credit card bills…, I need to keep an eye on them so that you won’t forget to pay them on-time and get some unnecessary service charges.

I had given you a folder to hold all those important documents before I went back to HK last year. I asked you to give the tax consulting company our tuition receipts. You totally forgot about it. Well, it’s okay to submit it this year; but this increased my workload.

I understand that you need to work on weekends, and that you’re exhausted after work; so I take care of all the laundry and the cleaning of our place.

You never see all these dusts sitting on your speakers, TV, desks, bedframe, bookshelves…? Fine, I take care of them.

You never see the dirt on the bathroom mirrors? Fine, I clean it up.

You never see the spoiled food in our fridge? Fine, I thow it away.

Ran out of shampoo and bodywash? Fine, I already replaced the empty bottle with a new one, and I’ve also bought some extras so that we never have to rush to supermarkets when things run short all of a sudden.

I dun mind doing all these things, but how can you not see the mess on your desk and all these harddisks, cables, DVDs, CD-Rs, magazines, books, etc. on the floor?

Everyone who has seen our place knows how messy it is. I dun mind my friends seeing it, but I’m actually feeling extremely uncomfortable to live in a place like this.

I’m happy that we tidied up our place a little bit recently; but what’s the consequence of it? I was blamed for the missing repair report of the camera.

Although you did thank me for tidying up your desk, you don’t really apprecate it. You blame me for moving your stuff around when you can’t find what you want.

What is it?

I’m so fed up with it.

So many times that I ask myself how much longer I can stand it, but I find no answer to it.

Do I want someone who is so disorganized? No!

Do I think you would change? I dun think so.

So what’s left? It’s either “I quit or “live an unhappy life”.

Yes the feeling is still here …… but will it be used up one day?

Problems of living together is just one thing. What about you dun like me having a few drinks with my friends?

Why do you have to make me cry everytime after I have fun hanging out with my friends?

I know what happenned at Tonic was bad. I already promised you that I woundn’t go clubbing anymore; but not even having a few drinks with my friends on their birthdays? Not even going out for dinner with a bunch of people? A mysterious man voice on the phone was my fault? What about YOUR friends? I couldn’t even have a few drinks when I was under your supervision?

Don’t tell me that you worry about me! I want no care like that! Being your g/f doesn’t mean that you have control over me.

I was extremely upset about your reaction to my having a few drinks with my friends last Saturday! You could totally see that I wasn’t really drunk. I didn’t do anything stupid, did I? Why did you have to give me that face? What did I do wrong? It was my friend’s birthday, and I also gotta see a few old friends that I hadn’t seen for years. What was wrong with having a few shots?

I dunno……. I dun think anyone would think that it is right of you to control your g/f like that.

I love you, but what you did and what you’re doing is pushing my heart away.

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