Archive for March, 2006

How many times more?

A friend is leaving soon. He’ll be gone for a year. We were supposed to meet tonight, but he finally decided that it’d be better that we dun see each other.

I respect his decision. I said okay; I said I understood; but deep in my heart …… I’m not happy about it.

I dunno if it’s selfish or what; I’m actually not quite sure if this really was a good thing for both of us, as he claimed.

I feel a bit angry, too; but I dunno what exactly I’m feeling angry for.

It’s easy to say that some people simply don’t mean to stay in your life, but it’s never a good feeling no matter how many times this has happened to you.

I think of these long lost friends once in a while. I lose contacts with some. For others that I still “talk to”, we actually don’t have much to talk to each other …… not anymore.

Sometimes I feel bad. I don’t understand why things had to happen this way. Sentimental, emotional… whatever you call it.

Anyway, there’s really nothing much that I can do now.

I wish you all the best on your trip. I do think that it’s a good thing for you, and I’m really happy for you. Take care! I’m looking forward to seeing a brand new you.

Add comment March 25th, 2006

What do I want to do with my life?

It has been a while since I last updated my blog. Nothing special happened: I’m still the same — repeating the same stupid mistakes, complaining about the same things, trying not to fall asleep in class but still do.

What do I want to do with my life? This is a question that I ask myself every single day, but it seems that I haven’t found an answer. I feel like a failure. I should have accomplished something by my age, but I’m still a burden to my parents.

I hate that I’m so vulnerable.

Add comment March 4th, 2006


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