Deliciously Stephy

In search for my first boyfriend on Friendster

May 28th, 2006

If you care about me, you’d have noticed that I’ve been sick for more than a week. All I do everyday is sleep and have a lot of bad dreams meanwhile (thanks to all this sleeping that I don’t want). When I’m not sleeping, I lie on my couch and do a lot of thinking.

Well, there’s never really something astonishing coming up. Basically, I just like to think of the past. To my surprise, all of a sudden , friendster came to my mind and the next thing was my so-called first boyfriend. (I won’t go into details here why “SO-CALLED”.)

So tonight I went on Friendster and searched for him.

Search by email? No result. (I had a feeling that he’s not on Friendster.)

Search by first name and last name, bunch of unwanted guys came up. (Even though he was on Friendster, it was impossible for me to spot him from the crowd.)

I browsed through the first page of the search result, feeling a bit sick about all these fat and old guys having the same name from all over the world: U.S., Sinapore, Malaysia, Phillippines, Sweden, etc..

I wondered if there was a way to search for only people from Canada, but Friendster doesn’t seem to offer such kind of “advanced” search.

Anyway, I finally went back to “search by first name and last name”. Alright … total number of search results was 78… not bad…. and you know what? To my surprise, I found him on the 5th page.

Is it him? I can’t see it clearly from the pictures on Friendster. Plus, I actually don’t remember his face. Age? Seemed to be correct. Married? Hmm… he could be. So… more pictures. There we go. It was him, and yes… he was married.

That was really surprising. Why? I dunno, but why not?

Well, I’m not missing him or what. Not At All. I guess there are simply some unanswered questions hoovering in my mind….like … how could he be so selfish … is he really a good guy or bad guy?

Although I do have answers to some of these questions, they still appeare to me as things that I can’t find an answer for. Is it because the answer I got by myself not satisfying enough ……. because those are not the answers that I don’t want?

Nevermind. This doesn’t bother me.

You know what I really care about at this moment.

Entry Filed under: Personal, Relationships/Friends