Is it because of the way I tie my hair?
Something odd happened again today.
I finished my two morning classes at 11a.m.. Then I went to the bookstore to look for a book. On my way back to the entrance/exit, I saw a new UofT crested water bottle. I always wanted a smaller water bottle, so I stopped and took a look at this new water bottle — see if it was smaller than the one I was using.
When I was holding the water bottle checking its capacity, the guy stood next to me said all of a sudden, “it’s not worth it.” . He asked me why I wanted a water bottle. I replied, “Drinking water is healthy”. Then he said he didn’t like spending money on anything, so water was a good thing as it was free. (???)
I asked him why he was standing there (because it was a narrow passage with hundreds of people walking by every second; plus there were only water bottles but nothing else).
He showed me a bubble gum wrapping on which there was a cartoon. He was reading it there. (Alright! How odd is that?)
Then we talked a bit about school and study, and he asked me for my email address.
Did I give it to him? Yes …… because I don’t know how to say No. More ironic is that he couldn’t even find a piece of paper to jot down my email address, and he asked me if I had paper. Oh right! I should have said that I didn’t have paper. Anyway, I gave him a post-it. He got my email address and gave his to me. Then I left.
It’s funny that so many people tried to get to know me these few days when I feel that I’m not wanted. Today is only the third day of school… two guys came up to me two days in a row …… I find it really odd!!! These aren’t really something good from my point of view though it might have given me some sense of confidence on my appearance, but their attention is simply not what I want. Besides, I also find that I still have this problem of not knowing how to refuse people.
I wanted to leave after his commenting on the water bottle, but I didn’t want to be rude; so I stayed. (Who knows he would keep talking?!)
Same thing to what happened yesterday. I should have said that I didn’t like watching movie. I shouldn’t reply that engineering guy with a SURE when he said we should go out to watch a movie or something. I simply didn’t want to be rude. I really dunno how to say NO. After all, he’s my classmate. I still need to see him in the next 3 months.
Well, I hope he simply wants to make a friend in class. As for that water-bottle guy, I ain’t really worried about it. He only has my email address. I can simply not reply his email.
So what now? I should concentrate on my work, my life.
Stop pondering on the same damn thing. Move on and get over it.
It’s always easy to be said than done. Can anyone help?
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