Deliciously Stephy

My assignment partner

October 2nd, 2006

Just had a busy weekend. First, I slept in on Friday morning, the second time in a week. The first time was Thursday… so yes! Two days in a row …… that was really bad …… but I guess you could tell how tired I was.

I missed the first tutorial of an Economics class, and then I decided to skip Yoga Fit because I had to work on an assignment for my database management class. It was due next week, but I needed to meet up with my assignment partner at night to discuss our work. Apart from it, the location of Yoga Fit was changed to Fencing Salle last week. I went to Fencing Salle two weeks ago for Kendo Start with Jess. The floor was extremely dirty. Our feet all turned black after the Kendo class. Seriously, that was really gross! I honestly didn’t want to do my Yoga there even though there would be a mat!

Friday afternoon was a torture. I was so tired and sleepy that I couldn’t help closing my eyes. Coffee didn’t help at all. I really wanted to call my partner and cancelled the meeting, but I finally managed to stay awake, and we worked on the assignment from 8p.m. to 12 a.m..

My assignment partner was the Engineering student who talked to me in our first DBMS class. Actually, I was planning to work on the assignment by myself, but since he asked me to be his partner and that working with him would definitely be better than working by myself; I agreed to be his partner without considering any potential problem — his hidden motive.

Anyway, he drove to my place at around 8p.m., and then we went to a nearly Tim Horton’s on Yonge. When we were crossing Yonge street to get to the Timmies on the opposite side, he held my hand all of a sudden. Well, he let go of it immediately once we reached the pedestrian walk …… so that wasn’t really very bad; and this didn’t bother me much.

On our way back to his car …… again, we had to make a cross of Yonge street. There were a lot of cars, so I was patiently waiting. Then suddenly, he took my hand and walked out to the middle of the road. I was really scared, but he signaled the cars to stop for us, so we safely arrived at the other side of the road. However, he didn’t seem to have an intention to let go of my hand. Therefore, I slowly and “naturally” took my hand back and put both of them into my pockets. (I didn’t want to make him feel bad.)

He hugged me, thanking me for being his assignment partner before I got off his car and went home.

I went on MSN once I got home, seeking for advice about my assignment partner because I felt really weird about his holding my hand.

The good-bye hug…… I was totally fine with it. Some of my friends hug me everytime we see each other; but I really didn’t feel very comfortable with his holding my hand. Or was I too sensitive? He simply wanted to make sure that we both crossed the street safely?

I talked to two male friends about it. They both found this holding-my-hand-all-of-a-sudden thing a problematic act.

Chap was really worried that night as he knew about how this guy approached me in our first class. He was usually too busy to give me a call or even talk to me on the phone when he was working; but he text messaged me on Friday. I called him when I got home, not planning to tell him anything; but he asked….., so I told him.

Of course he wasn’t very happy about it, and he was a bit angry with me because I still refused to acknowledge my assignment partner’s intention.

Maybe you would think I was too silly, naiive or stupid…… but somehow I really don’t want to assume that people have other intentions besides making a new friend when they approach me. Even if there was something odd and suspicious, I would still choose to ignore it. I won’t think that he likes me until he actually tells me so. I guess …… it was because subconsciously…… I don’t want it to be true!!!

For this case, I honestly hope that he can be a good partner and friend in my database class. I need a friend A LOT MORE than an assurance of my appearance and charm.

If God is reading my blog, I hope he can grant me my wish.

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