Isaiah 40:31
Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and will not be faint.
以 賽 亞 書 40:31
但 那 等 候 耶 和 華 的 、 必 從 新 得 力 、 他 們 必 如 鷹 展 翅 上 騰 、 他 們 奔 跑 卻 不 困 倦 、 行 走 卻 不 疲 乏 。
Add comment June 25th, 2007
I went to church by myself today… It was hard… I was about to be overthrown by my sadness. I didn’t want the pain of not having Chap to go to Sunday Worship with me. It seemed that things would be easier if I just went to a library and not go to church…
but I know I can’t give up…… Satan has already successfully stolen Chap from God and created a barrier in our relationship… I can’t listen to my sadness and do the wrong thing… I can’t let Satan win… I must have faith in God…
* * * * *
I felt the warmth of God once I entered the hall. Although I was still feeling very sad, a sense of safety came to my heart.
I started praying once I had settled down at the back of the hall. Singing from the worship team brought me back to the congregation.
I opened the pamphlet for the agenda of today’s sermon and found a leaflet of an upcoming sermon. It said, “if you think you’re a good man and you don’t have to come to church, this is for you.”
I was surprised… isn’t it how Chap always see Christianity? I felt that it was an opportunity to bring Chap back to the church…. but at the same time… I was worried…. I was worried that he might not be happy if I asked him to attend the function. I knew I must be very careful… I had to pray.
* * * * *
Near the end of the Sunday Worship was a time of tithing. I knew I had a $10 note in my purse and some change. $10 is actually less than the amount I earned in the week just passed…… but I hesitated to give it…… I counted the amount of change I had in my coin bag. I saw two loonies.
After some struggle, I put in $10.
* * * * *
I headed downtown after the Sunday Worship. I felt a bit scared of having so little money in my purse….. but $2 + some pennies, nickels, and dimes should be enough for a coffee, which I really needed to help me stay awake in the library. I also had two buns in my backpack. Although they were a-few-day old and I don’t usually eat “BBQ Pork Bun” and “Mexico Bun”…… I was sure that they were eatable.
However, I could only found one loonies when I was in the line at the Timmy’s on College and Yonge. Counting all the coins I had, I found a total of $1.85…… enough for a coffee… but not enough if I added a muffin.
* * * * *
Well… I do have some money in my bank… so I won’t die if I really need a bit more cash…… but I can’t let myself use those money because I need it to pay up my tuition debt.
I have a conviction that God will provide, so I’m not afraid of being poor……
but I’m afraid of losing Chap….. I guess I still haven’t had enough faith in God, trusting that he will always stay by my side and guide me through the darkness.
Add comment June 24th, 2007
Can anyone tell me what I should do? I’m sad. I’m lost. I’m scared. Everything is telling me that this relationship won’t last very long… I don’t want to give up… I really don’t…. but I’m feeling very weak… too weak to stand against the fact.
I love God, and I love my dad. God is my everything, and my dad is someone I respect most…. but the man I see as my future husband doesn’t love them…… Things weren’t like that before…. What did I do?
I thought this would only happen on TV, and I used to think that was some outdated story……. but now I know how painful it is…
I can’t imagine what it would be like if Chapman and I really broke up… so I chose to stay… trying my best to ignore the problem… stealing as many days as I can to be with him.
I’m scared… I’m really very scared… I don’t know what Chap will say to me in the next minute… I’m scared that he would become really cold to me again… I don’t know how long I can hang on… I don’t know when Chap would tell me again that things don’t work out and breaking up is inevitable.
Living in fear… living in tears… living in desperation…
Add comment June 24th, 2007
I never feel so sad about it. Some Christians are doing things that are even worse than what normal people (atheists) do. I was really angry about it at first… but then I became really sad … I didn’t expect that I would even cry about it. Silly huh? Maybe it’s the Holy Spirit.
You know? It’s not just one person… but two, three, four, five…
They don’t seem to know that they are doing something wrong… what a shame?! Don’t they feel guilty? Or the world has blinded them and they think they’re just being wise? I have no idea…
so I just prayed and prayed and prayed…while I was sweeping the floor…
Add comment June 15th, 2007
“So many things about our lives are uncertain.
This one thing, however, is sure:
no matter where, when, or how long,
God will be there and will be with us.”
This is something I read in my daily devotional email.
Thank you God!
I really have found great comfort in knowing that I cannot be in a place or time where you are not.
As you should have known, I feel lonely easily…. especially when I’m trying to meet an assignment deadline. I’m sorry.
Father, give me the strength and courage to go through the next 18 hours. Remind me that I’m never alone.
I Love You!
Add comment June 8th, 2007
I met up with an old friend before my class on Thursday’s evening.
I was sharing with him my recent conflict with Chap on my ability to deal with guys who seem to be interested in me.
I told this friend a few examples, and then one of those guys appeared in front of me. I couldn’t recognize him at first. I even asked my friend if the guy who was waving at us his friend or not.
Anyway, I thought that was it: a Hi and a Bye. I didn’t expect he would try to talk to me again … cuz what happened before was he avoided me all of a sudden after our first assignment — from the one who asked me to join his family to go pick apples to the one who didn’t even talk to me in class.
Well, I’m not sure why, but I guess it was because he somehow sensed that I was not interested… or maybe he couldn’t stand that he was responsible for the a few marks that we lost in the assignment?
Whatever reason it is, I think it was very mean of him to ignore me all of a sudden. I was always being nice… too nice that I didn’t even say anything when he held my hand all of a sudden. Now what? He emailed me again… telling me that he would be around the campus during the summer……. blah blah blah… I really don’t know what he is thinking…. nor do I know what I’m supposed to do.
I’m not angry at all … I’m just feeling puzzled.
Add comment May 19th, 2007
***Your Life is 49% Perfect***
Your life is pretty normal - sometimes great, sometimes not so great.
You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.
How Perfect is Your Life?
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Add comment May 11th, 2007
I posted this article, “Questions From Your Girlfriend That Aren’t Really Questions” on Facebook a while ago, but I didn’t read through the whole thing in details until now… and here’s one of those questions that I’d love to share with you.
Question: “How do I look?”
What it really means: “Tell me I am attractive. Now.”
If there’s one thing human beings cannot stand, it’s the truth – and women are no exception. If your girlfriend walked out of the bathroom with her panties around her neck, mud rubbed in her hair and torn spandex pants, she’d still ask you how she looked and expect a complimentary response. In a way, she’s almost being generous – the boyfriend is given an easy excuse to earn brownie points by sycophantically praising his girlfriend’s physical attributes. Whether or not the boyfriend is lying through his teeth is irrelevant to the girlfriend.
How to deal with it:
Pretend to have your mind focused on something else for a second. Then look back at her, as if you just now realized she ask you something. The moment your eyes hit hers, suddenly act as if you have become overwhelmed with a wave of absolute astonishment – who is this beautiful woman, and how did she get here? Widen your eyes and try to look as childlike as possible, dumbfounded with amazement at her beauty.
These theatrics may seem unnecessary or silly, but one must realize that a simple “you look great” will result in nothing more than an argument and a likely denial of sex for the next 24 hours. If a woman deems it necessary to ask you how she looks, then she’s obviously spent some degree of effort on her appearance, and wants to be rewarded with an unusually positive reaction to it.
Source: http://www.doubleviking.com/questions-from-your-girlfriend-that-aren-t-really-questions-4486-p.html
Add comment April 18th, 2007
I became in charge of taking customers’ orders (instead of bringing food to the tables) these two weeks at Ajisen Ramen. Not sure if it was the reason… there were 3 guys asking for my phone number in a week. Well, I worked more than usual last week. I worked on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.
The guy on Wednesday asked me out at first…
“You free this weekend?”
No, I have to work.
“What about next week?”
No, I have to study. Exams are after next week.
……………..
Well, this guy was fun to talk to…
He was humorous…
but I have a boyfriend. 
The guy on Wednesday is the most mature one.
He loves landscaping and beer…
These are two things that I don’t know much about….
so it would be fun to learn something new…
but I guess I should stop being so naive… thinking that they only want to be my friends…
The guy on Sunday…. Hmm… He’s the most “creative” one.
He asked me for more tea… so I went up to his table.
When I was pouring him some more tea, he turned his PDA/Blackberry thingy on the table to my direction… I was a bit puzzled… then he asked me to look at it….
He wrote something there… asking me for my phone number and if I’d be interested in going out for a drink after work.
I told my brother about it later.
His first response was: “Hey! You wear glasses to go to work, right?”
Apparently… he thought I looked really ugly in my glasses… and he was wondering why such a nerdy look could attract people. LOL….
Anyway… no…. I rarely wore glasses to work…but I do agree with my brother that I look better without glasses…. (just better…. cuz I’ve already accepted the fact that I’m too old to look good.)
Another funny thing about talking to my brother about these guys is….
He would say…. “I could use this technique to ask for gal’s phone numbers.” LOL
Add comment April 17th, 2007
Dire Strait - Why Worry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=im2SoltmZEc
Dire Strait’s Brother In Arms is one of Daddy’s favourite albums.
My brother and I grew up listening to their songs…
Not sure if it was because I had been listening to them millions times… I think this is a perfect CD….
and tonight…. when I was feeling sad and lost……
I remembered this song:
Baby I see this world has made you sad
Some people can be bad
The things they do, the things they say
But baby Ill wipe away those bitter tears
Ill chase away those restless fears
That turn your blue skies into grey
Why worry, there should be laughter after the pain
There should be sunshine after rain
These things have always been the same
So why worry now
Baby when I get down I turn to you
And you make sense of what I do
I know it isnt hard to say
But baby just when this world seems mean and cold
Our love comes shining red and gold
And all the rest is by the way
Why worry, there should be laughter after pain
There should be sunsh ine after rain
These things have always been the same
So why worry now
Add comment March 24th, 2007